CW: fluctuates between 210-213
My name is Phylicia. I'm 22 years old and married. I was my highest weight in July and I'm working my ass off to get to 180. It's a slow journey but well worth the wait. So I've heard. Any other questions? Just ask! If you wanna see more of me, search the tag "me" or there's a tab you can look at for pictures. :)
I went to the doctor today and we talked about my nausea meds, anti anxiety/depression meds and babies.
Nausea Meds: pretty cut and dry. I need them, he gave them. Set me up with a tummy doctor although i’ve already been. I don’t really wanna go again buttttt whatever.
Babies: He did some blood work. So this issue is to be continued.
Anti-anxiety/depression: We talked about what’s going on with me and my emotions. My life and how I’m always tired and doing day to day activities are just too much for me. How I’d rather lay in bed than do absolutely anything else most days. We also talked about some of the darker things going on up there and he prescribed me some meds and I spoke to the therapist on staff. She told me that I wasn’t too far gone to be helped and it wouldn’t just be about the meds. It also has to be about getting into things that used to make me happy. It’s gonna be kind of a tough road getting back to a place where I was pretty happy but it happened before and it’ll happen again. They kept telling me how strong I am for reaching out and asking for help, especially a second time. I don’t feel strong though.
As for my weightloss:
The progress is painfully slow and my weight is fluctuating between 211-213. I’m still working. I’m still trying. It’s just not going as smoothly as it once was. I know things are getting better physically. I did the incline, something I could have never done before. I still go to the gym and I still do my best. I’m still gonna do the color me rad 5k on the 1st and everything will work out. No matter what, I won’t give up and that’s that.
Welp, it’s our 2 year anniversary. A week ago I honestly didn’t think this day would mean anything today or any other day for the rest of my life. I’m glad we chose to try to work things out instead of just calling it quits. I’m going to get cheesecake now.